Why I Changed My Life For The Better

Hey Boss Babes! Hope everyone is having a fantastic day. 

I've never really shared much about me other than the fact that I swam and now I'm into fitness and helping others achieve their goals, so, today I thought I'd tell you guys a little more about me! This post may be longer than others but I'd say it's a pretty important one. 

So I swam since I was nine years old and basically all I did until I was seventeen was swim and go to school. This really took a toll on me just because I didn't know what else was out there and what other things I was capable of. Now I'm not saying swimming sucked, I loved it and it took me places I never thought I could or would go and I met so many amazing people along the way and I'm forever grateful for that, however, I always wanted to do something more or switch it up a bit. 

When I was young I went through my parents divorce which sucked but I got over it and now I'm so happy for both of them, however, at the time it really did affect me. I started acting out, getting all emotional, doing stupid stuff. I don't think much of it had to do with my parents divorce, but it was mostly me just starting to follow others who did stupid stuff that at the time I thought was "cool." Basically age 12 up until age 16, 17 I really didn't give two shits about anything or anyone for that matter. I did whatever I wanted, hung out with people that I thought were cool but really now that I think of it weren't cool at all, and did a lot of things I'm not proud of. 

I was a dumb teenager who thought to fit in I would have to do what others did, I was so wrong. I ended up having pretty bad depression, lashing out all the time at anyone who talked to me, treated my real friends and family terribly, self harming, doing drugs, having ADHD, feeling insecure, having anxiety, hating myself, the list goes on. I had no idea what my life had become and I was so ashamed of myself. I made so many terrible decisions which ended up costing me my real friends, doing horrible in school, not going to practices, and much more. I really hit rock bottom when I ended up not getting into UofA because my marks were so low. I was so set on going there and swimming with the team I just didn't even think of the actual school part. Being me, I just thought whatever I'll get in because they offered me a scholarship there's nothing to worry about. WRONG. Also when I lost my bestfriend of like eight maybe nine years and lots of other close friends to terrible mistakes I made in high school, it really took it's toll on me as well. Having people judge you, hate you, and make fun of you is honestly super shitty. I never thought I would do some of the terrible things I had done, but I have definitely learnt from my mistakes.

When I turned 18 and decided I was going to quit swimming, I knew it was time for a change. I started working out with my mom at the Shawnessy YMCA, ended up getting into Mount Royal University even with my not so amazing grades, I got a job at the place I used to swim (ironic, just can't get away from this place), I met the most amazing, loving man who I'm head over heels for and who has the same passions as me, and I now get along with my parents more than I ever have. My whole outlook on life changed when I decided I needed to focus on ME and focus on bettering myself. I started working out every single day, took a spring course, worked a lot at my job, basically everything started falling into place for me. 

Now, I'm apart of an amazing movement with two beautiful strong women who I look up to and care for, I have never felt better about myself, I work hard at my job, I work hard at school, and I work hard at bettering myself every single day even though I still have ADHD and I may still have some super shitty days.

Basically babes what I'm trying to say is that life can be super shitty and you can make dumb mistakes, follow the wrong crowd, not be yourself, but you can change that!! You can change for the better, you can BE BETTER. I never thought I would be where I am today and I can't thank the people who stook around enough for helping me along. YOU are in control. YOU are your own person. YOU are the one who makes the decisions to get up off your ass and decide to be better. I've had a tough couple of years, lots of people have, it's just choosing to do something about it. I used to be this sad, lonely, lazy girl who could care less about herself or others, until I made the decision to fight for what I wanted. If I could take back the dumb shit I did, I would. Some stuff I wouldn't though because if I didn't do or go through some of that stuff I wouldn't be who I am today. 

So work hard boss babes. Work hard for yourselves and push yourselves to be a better version of you. 

 

Written by: Lauren Hedley

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