"You are so strong"
"I look up to you"
"You are so inspiring"
I have worked for my entire life to hear these phrases because I have always known my true passion was in making a difference. I feel like everyday I have a reason to get out of bed because I have people that I need to help and if I can't get out of bed then what does that say about how these people may see themselves? But being the person that others look up too; or being the women who will never back down to anything or anyone has always made my life x100 harder.
Inspiring, helping, motivating and accomplishing every goal I have ever set out to do is what motivates me to go to the gym, to squat a little bit more and get out of bed every single day and truly it makes me the happiest women alive; but some days I don't want to get out of bed, I don't want to be a business owner and I wish I picked an easy life with a white picket fence or just moved to Hawaii, changed my name and never looked back.
I envy the people who don't have social media
I envy the people who work regular 9-5 jobs and don't have anything else to do other than relax after work
I envy the people with a white picket fence, golden retriever and perfect relationship.
Envy is the product of always believing that the grass is greener on the other side, and trust me I get it too. I have heard from friends, family and acquaintances that it looks like I have the best life ever, that I am "living the dream" but having the "best life ever" is the worlds biggest over-exaggeration when we are talking about my life. I love my life and wouldn't change a single aspect but my life isn't better than yours or worse than yours- its just different.
I have worked for the life I have an I will keep working for what I want and my goals because I know I started and have kept going for 3+ years for a reason , and its because even when my depression, anxiety or life gets in the way... this is my passion and I wouldn't change it for the world.
Nobody has a better life than yours and if you are ever struggling with the happiness in your life makes the changes to make yourself happy.
- Ashley Resch